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* i found this funny amazing food art. here's some piece I'd like to share :)

Shoulder Muscle Pain..

This pain is so loyal to me. It doesn't want to go away. Ugh! It's killing me!!! How can I get rid of this?


I tried taking Panadol but I don't want to be dependent on it. Sometimes it's fine, then all of a sudden it will strike again. I don't know what's causing it. I'm thinking that maybe because my baby is getting heavier, and I usually carry her by my left arm, that might cause the pain on my shoulder.

I had a wonderful massage just a few minutes ago, Sabrina was my personal and private masseur. Thanks for a very nice, and relaxing massage. I think it got worst, hahaha! Kidding aside, I think the massage helped the muscles loosen up a little. I hope I feel better soon. This pain makes me cranky sometimes. They say that muscle pain is caused by stress, but I think it's the other way around, I feel stress because of the pain.

I miss my mom's powerful and magical hands. She was the one who massages me when  I have muscle pains. And in one touch of her hands, the pain will be gone.

It Hurts When Your Friends Ignore You..

Have you ever been ignored by a friend? I have been. Being ignored is like slapping you in the face. It's rude, it's hurtful and indeed disappointing. 

Sometimes I ask myself, am I a good friend or perhaps the appropriate question is DO I HAVE A FRIEND? 

I wonder! But in the back of my mind, it's telling me the fact that I have gotten no friends at all. My world evolves in my family and I came to realize that we have no other friends. We haven't got the time to meet new friends and spend time with them. I think we are better off alone with my family. But sometimes, just sometimes, I still feel the need for socialization and interaction with friends. Facebook is my only way to socialize, but since I am very conscious on using it... I am controlling myself not to post anything to Facebook anymore.

And sometimes when I feel so alone, I feel the need of a friend... someone I can talk to... someone I can lean on... someone I can laugh with... But the problem is... WHO IS SHE? WHERE IS SHE? That I don't know.

Swallowing Pride

Is swallowing your pride means your accepting your mistakes? 

In my point of view, No! 

I just want to make clarifications that I swallowed my pride because of the fact that we were not supposed to be enemies but the issues just made us what we are. I greeted you because I thought you were mature enough to reply back and set aside our differences but hey now I know, you are not even halfway. 

I am not accepting mistakes because I don't have one. It's really funny to think that you reacted on a post that wasn't meant for you and thought that it was you that we were talking about. Hey, no one reacts to a post when you are not really it or perhaps you are truly guilty about it. I

Now I understand that it's really difficult to talk to a person whose intelligence is not as high as mine. My gawd, why is it so hard for you to comprehend that it wasn't you. It's been a long time since that issue popped out but you are still insisting that it was you that I was talking about, hahaha! 

I won't budge to talk to you anymore if you don't reply to my message. Perhaps you are not worth my time after all.

Unfriend a Friend

Does it occur to you sometimes to unfriend a friend in one of the social networks such as Facebook, Twitter..etc

Personally, I want to unfriend someone who doesn't seem to make an effort of being my friend. I thought of her as someone who has dignity and wisdom but I was wrong. Sadly, I am regretful of making an effort to be friends with her. I was right of how I assumed her in the first place... She's envious and she's a hypocrite.

I am so hating her right now for how she reacts to me. There's a quote that says, "My attitude will always be based on how you treat me," but the problem is I cannot be a hypocrite because I am not one. But whatever she is upto, I wish her luck.

Doubtful friend..

Most of the time,  I don't know how to react anymore. Sometimes, your friends won't like your posts on Facebook for reasons you don't know. Do they choose not to like you? Or do they not like your post at all? Was it something deeper than that? I am a very observant person and I can't help but observe the reaction and personality of the people around me in Facebook. You know that they are there and reading your status, you know that they are online looking at the photo you have posted but do they do something about it... none. They will just ignore you... Reasons? I DO NOT KNOW. I was trying to do the same thing for a month. I taught myself on how to ignore people I know from Facebook. I tried not to like and say on my friend's posts and see how will they feel. But you know what I have observed, life just keeps going on and on even if you are there or not. Some will miss you but some just don't bother at all. And because of that, I have been thinking, were they really my friends?

One friend in particular who I taught love me, don't actually budge to like or comment in any of my posts. What the heck? But if her best friends wrote something on their status, she will comment right away and start a conversation. I just don't understand why. Is it something to do with me? Or is it them?

Facebook is making me crazy and it is making me doubtful of my friends... This is not good!

I am not so sure what love is..

Sometimes I am not sure what love is. Sometimes I would find myself asking is this how love is suppose to feel?

There used to be days I was really sure what it is. Moment of first love that innocent fluttering feeling which comes out and lives within me with excitement made me confident this was probably was love was. Fresh and new and full of excitement. Then in the midst of smiles and laughter, tears came along..with anger and pain. What seem to me like it was everlasting love,flew out of the window in just a blink of an eye. Questions began to rise, isn't love suppose to be everlasting? or is it just a spur of the moment thing. Can you really lose love with time?

Second and third relationships ended up the same way. Things such as 'I felt love in the beginning, but somehow I lost it with you... you'd be better off with another better guy' became a common quote. Innocent image of love gets lost in the process. All you'd recall is just how 'love' doesn't last and that well maybe you just don't know what exactly love is.

Funny, how easy it is sometimes to forget all those happy moments you share with a person that you've build together for a period of time in just a blink of an eye... then later on only recall the pain which acts as the base for the defensive mechanism you unknowingly build around you. Sometimes I guess maybe I chose not to believe in love so I don't get hurt again.

I'm back again on the track but I am not sure what I am feeling is really love, or just a longing to be with someone, since I've seem to have a misconception. The image of love began to be blurry. What exactly it is begins to be uncertain. I doubt almost everything and just things flow, but I can't really feel like I am all there.

In the end I am still not sure.

Just A Kiss-Lady Antebellum

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take this slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight 

#iloveyou Arnold

Final exam real soon!!

What a great afternoon today ! :)
3 weeks left for final exam from right now
I know I have no longer time to prepare all things needed, 
My final assignment has not been complete and it's getting complicated since I'm out and enjoy too much with my pals few weeks ago, 
now I don't know how to make it started, cause
I need to learn much things before I work for it.
I have to start studying from the beginning to get the best result in final exams, and it makes me feel overpressure like an ironed cloth..sigh!
I know this is not the end of everything, so I have encourage myself and make it enjoyable eventhough it's not as easy as I expect to be. 

The second final exams I will have is Surface Anatomy, Pathology, Biomechanic, Exercise Therapy, and Kinesiology! That's stressing me out..
Whatever they are, I have to approach them with the whole of my heart..!
hell yeahhh!!

The most difficult thing to do right now is fighting againts my laziness and upgrading my mind, and I wish I could do it at the same time.. heuh ! -__________-"

Now, I have to say goodbye, and trying to collect all my spirit to study hard for the final exams!
Finals on Christmas! How depressing..
                                 
                                

Christmas for all...

Hello friends, here I am again. So how was your Christmas preparations?

  I did have a bad hangover whereby i'll be celebrating Christmas all alone without my families.

 I have been planning to spend my Christmas and New Year back in KK but

 I don't think I could make it out due to my second semester final exam falls this coming 26th. 

This is sad!  

The clubs and the restaurants must have already reserved and I would likely have to spend the night back in hostel and watching the fireworks.

 It can be fun though hopping here and there and cheering with the crowd for the New Year. Let's see what happens. It would not be less fun if I am in KK and hit the discos or pubs.

 Moreover, I can be with my families especially my mommy!

Why do I have to spent my Christmas here again??! It's kinda new to me and yeah i just wish being around with the love ones!

Will be stressing out with my studies so less blogging, any social web.

All i want for Christmas is my family. 

Anyways, Happy New Year to all of you. I wish everyone of you have a nice, prosperous 2012 .

up to you how you feel

Hey "bestest" friend. You know who you are.

I'm just writing this to say that I've been thinking a lot lately and I realize this is going nowhere.

 We can never really talk heart to heart and that's what I want.

 Communication is just really important to me. Although it's kind of hard, I kept trying and I sometimes worked but never for a long time.

 It's hard for me to commit without you. So please, tell me if you really do hate me,

 so that I will know if my efforts are worth for anything at all. 

Don't hint some remark that could possibly be known as flirting. 

Because that gets me confused and mad. 

For all I know, you could be just really friendly and has not thought of us to be more than friends. 

Your actions and words speak otherwise...

And with all I know, I've been knowing you for a few years now. And I can't wait any longer. I need answers.

So here's to the possibilities. Either you end this unknown and tell me how you really feel or I just walk away. Even being just friends with you is too hard. I need to move on. I can't be stuck waiting.

And whether you read this or not, it's going to be here. Whether you reply to this or not, it's up to how you really feel.

to face that fear

It’s been a cycle since I was fourteen,. maybe younger. I fall madly in love with a boy, almost instantly. 

It’s wonderful and perfect and everything I’ve ever wanted. After about a year or so, I get bored. 

As much as I hate to admit that I’m this kind of person, I have cheated on every serious boyfriend I have ever had. I’m only eighteen..

 I’m afraid to be alone, so when things start getting rocky with a guy I find a replacement before I even end things with them.

 I have not ever trusted a man in my life except for my friends and I later learned that she betrayed my trust in a way that was completely

 unforgivable but I was too young to know. 

I loved her with all my heart all of her short life and we were so close.

I have loved a lot of guys for my age.

 Who knows if it was ever real love, but now I doubt that it ever was because I’ve realized without trust you can never have true love. 

I don’t want to be the person that I have become.

 I lie to everyone around me, especially the people

 I’m closest with just because I assume that’s what everyone does. 

When I get suspicious that someone isn’t telling the truth I usually bring it up to them and they assure me that they are being honest but I can never believe anyone’s word.  How long does it take to find out the truth about everyone else? 

Is everyone just putting on a fake face and doing what they want while telling their friends, lovers, and family just what they want to hear? 

Maybe everyone is just as good as covering up their lies as I have become. 

 And that changes everything in the relationship for me. It’s taken me a while to realize that.

I don’t know how or where to start but I need to change.

 I need to get over the things that have happened to me in the past. I need to be alone, without a man in my life to depend on, for once and work on bettering myself. Being alone has been my biggest fear since I was a child, even if for a short time. 

I need to face that fear.

 I need to learn to trust myself before I can ever trust anyone else and have a happy relationship.

To everyone I’ve ever hurt, I am so sorry. I hope you forgive me one day.

This is the first I’ve ever admitted this to anyone, it’s a lot easier to admit things to total strangers than to people you know.

 Please don’t judge me, I’m not this horrible person that I’ve become.

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love." 

When Love Comes

 

"Love comes when manipulation stops; 

when you think more about the other person than about his or her realiction to you; when you dare to reveal yourself fully; 

when you dare to be vulnerable."

What I Am..

My name is Goldee Misha and yes I do drink alcohol not beer but liquor is my vice,

I don't smoke.

I'd  stay at home ,or I often say out for shopping!

Oh damn it alot because I am only the only child and with a house full of girls,

you just gotta say it to stay sane, 

I am and always be a bitch because of home wrecking bitches.

I do curse, 

I do think I have a very tough life even though looking from 

the outside in my life looks fucking fabulous,

I am a sister, I am a good friend who will

 NOT let you down,

I am quiet but beware I will tear your ass a new one if need be,

I am in love with the thought of love,I trust too easily,

 I cry alot but no in public,

when I say I love you, I mean it cause I have a big heart,

I am the one person you can count on when shit hits the fan,

I am the person who will never spill your secrets,

 I am the one you least expect to steal your heart and Then make you cry,

but most of all

I AM ME.

xoxo you know you love me~